can something positive causes negativity?
***
since i was a kid, i've been told that during ramadan, muslims ask forgiveness for past sins, pray for guidance and help in refraining from everyday evils, and try to purify themselves through self-restraint and good deeds. yada-yada-yada.
but seriously.
i still see no difference. except for the fact that i refrain from eating and drinking starting from dawn till dusk. i still do the same things. i still talk the same way. well at least i wear decent clothing more this month.heh.
i think i get the picture.
i mean, this is the month where everybody try to find their inner positivity. trying to accept things for whatever reason it happened for. trying to believe that there'll always be sunshine after the rain. trying to absorb painful facts like, i don't know, life sucks and none of us come out of it alive? hehe. ok. bad joke.
my dad is complaining more than ever so suddenly. my sister brought home her soon-to-be husband breaking fast almost everyday. my brother's going crazy finding helps to get his girlfriend back. hence, they left my father taking care of their shits. he is way past those responsibilities already. he should be having all the time and the money and his freedom to do his own things now. like gardening, or fishing, or whatever. whatever makes him happy.
i dont know. i just dont get it.
i thought this is the month where everybody finds a way to, you know, realise their mistakes and fix things. find a way to understand where they stand and what should they do to make things better. not making their parents miserable. or drive their spouses crazy. or making other people than their family their highest priority.
or maybe dad is just overreacting because it is holy month. and he's all stressed out not having enough alone time with god. i guess so. maybe.
and maybe something positive, like this holy month for instance, can cause negativity. silly me, blaming it on the month. heh.
but anyhow, i just hope things will get better with syawal.
