to feel free and at the same time trapped
that you are envied of because you are admired
or that you are hated of because you are ungrateful
for not taking the love poured on your doorstep
or to mistaken love making for sex
like love for lust
or gifts for some sort of bribe
when you thought you knew everything
when you thought you could never misunderstood
when you thought you could diferentiate right from wrong
the need to be certain
is beyond everything else i ever needed now
but then i thought
why would there be god
if we could decide on our own
